while the world sleeps

sadness. still

Fri, 16 Nov 2012 04:12:26 -0500

My numbing silence and indifference will convey the pain inside

I have shut off the screams and compressed them in my palms

I will forever suffer

I will forever dream of happy days that will never come,

sweet smiles that will never be mine

What I have and what I own is the silence I keep between us

Silence which I resolve to keep and bring to my tomb

Silence that will only be broken by goodbye

You can own the world and sit on it

But you will never again have my heart.

when 24 and 7 is not enough i find my place in a dark corner where time does not exist and tomorrow...

Mon, 08 Oct 2012 05:02:39 -0400

when 24 and 7 is not enough

i find my place in a dark corner

where time does not exist

and tomorrow is merely an option

i contain my scream inside

and think about the time

when I was three and on my horse

when I was running free with an undamaged soul

when my heart was hopeful

and now i retreat to my corner

with nothing but my fears

and my tired sole

marriage is the best sugar-coated pill to end your sweet life

Mon, 30 Apr 2012 06:44:29 -0400

marriage is the best sugar-coated pill to end your sweet life

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Wed, 07 Mar 2012 19:14:56 -0500

this is where I get tired where I learn to stop asking and just cope this where numbness starts to...

Sun, 05 Feb 2012 21:29:11 -0500

this is where I get tired

where I learn to stop asking and just cope

this where numbness starts to set in

where I learn to settle with what is given me

this is where I make my own happiness

where I learn to rediscover my strength and find my own pace

this may not be the place yet,

perhaps, soon, goodbye will just be an inch away.

you make me feel like I can do anything and everything. your presence reassured me of my strength,...

Tue, 25 Oct 2011 21:33:42 -0400

you make me feel like I can do anything and everything.

your presence reassured me of my strength, my beauty and the wisdom im earning along the way.

five more months and we will be together, my little koochee.

i long for someone who will make me laugh and make me feel better

Fri, 12 Aug 2011 07:52:00 -0400

i long for someone who will make me laugh and make me feel better

it’safeelingsimilartogoingtoapartywhichyoudoubtedthewholedaywouldbefun butyouwentanywaysinceyou...

Fri, 12 Aug 2011 07:50:26 -0400

it’safeelingsimilartogoingtoapartywhichyoudoubtedthewholedaywouldbefun

butyouwentanywaysinceyouwerenevertaughthowtosayno

youmangedtofindtheperfectopportunitytogetaway

buthtensomeoneinsistedyoustayandsoyoudid

youconvincedyourselfyouwerehavingfunanddrunkyourselftowhilethenightaway

thencomesthemorningafter….

badbaddecision.

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Tue, 19 Jul 2011 04:56:25 -0400

I will apologize and acknowledge all the mistakes thrown at me I will shut my ears to all the shouts...

Wed, 13 Jul 2011 20:30:01 -0400

I will apologize and acknowledge all the mistakes thrown at me

I will shut my ears to all the shouts and self-righteous lectures

I will spend each night waiting for morning to arrive

and spend all day as if night will never come

I will wait and be patient until all has been used up,

all has been exhausted and wait for numbness to come.

Until then savor your victory, for when all these things come my way,

everything will just be a step away and tears will be shed for you no more.

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Thu, 30 Jun 2011 19:39:13 -0400

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Wed, 29 Jun 2011 02:34:04 -0400

is very tired

Wed, 29 Jun 2011 01:53:31 -0400

is very tired

make me feel better

Tue, 28 Jun 2011 20:18:55 -0400

make me feel better

cordisre: The.Magician (by Chris)

Tue, 28 Jun 2011 19:12:35 -0400

cordisre:

The.Magician (by Chris)

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Tue, 07 Jun 2011 20:58:43 -0400

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Tue, 07 Jun 2011 20:57:35 -0400

ahhhh…

Tue, 07 Jun 2011 20:57:03 -0400

ahhhh…