marriage is the best sugar-coated pill to end your sweet life
this is where I get tired
where I learn to stop asking and just cope
this where numbness starts to set in
where I learn to settle with what is given me
this is where I make my own happiness
where I learn to rediscover my strength and find my own pace
this may not be the place yet,
perhaps, soon, goodbye will just be an inch away.
you make me feel like I can do anything and everything.
your presence reassured me of my strength, my beauty and the wisdom im earning along the way.
five more months and we will be together, my little koochee.
i long for someone who will make me laugh and make me feel better
it’safeelingsimilartogoingtoapartywhichyoudoubtedthewholedaywouldbefun
butyouwentanywaysinceyouwerenevertaughthowtosayno
youmangedtofindtheperfectopportunitytogetaway
buthtensomeoneinsistedyoustayandsoyoudid
youconvincedyourselfyouwerehavingfunanddrunkyourselftowhilethenightaway
thencomesthemorningafter….
badbaddecision.
I will apologize and acknowledge all the mistakes thrown at me
I will shut my ears to all the shouts and self-righteous lectures
I will spend each night waiting for morning to arrive
and spend all day as if night will never come
I will wait and be patient until all has been used up,
all has been exhausted and wait for numbness to come.
Until then savor your victory, for when all these things come my way,
everything will just be a step away and tears will be shed for you no more.
